Fat Guy in a Little Apartment
So, today was closing day on the house. Not that I had to do anything today because we signed the papers yesterday, but it is now official. I must say, I don’t understand the point of an escrow account. I’ve paid money every month yet the bank and county is over 6 months behind paying taxes and this is normal. I’m sure it is “right” but in so many ways it is completely wrong. It is even better when I question it and I’m treated like an idiot. What’s the point of asking questions? So I’ll wait to get whatever money is mine and stop worrying about it. Who really needs money anyway. I actually am having a moment of self-satisfaction. I spent most of the day not feeling well, but after a much needed nap I’ve really got a lot done in this little apartment I call home. I’m not even close to done but I have clear paths for now and I have a lot of good hours of work ahead of me thanks to my nap. Poker night may actually happen tomorrow night! I’m still wondering about the point of this blog thing. I’m one of those people that apparently says what I want whenever I want (so I’m told) however I feel I’m constantly censoring myself. Oh, and I really don’t say whatever I want whenever I want, that’s just people’s way of labeling me when they don’t like to hear what I have to say. I think I need to find a new source for recording those things. Maybe that will making things a little easier and I don’t have to feel like my own censor. The point of the blogging was for freedom of expression. An attempt to get my thoughts out of my head and be able to better express myself instead of holding everything inside. I’ve been doing that for far too long and it creates a constant feeling of being alone but somethings just shouldn’t be shared with the world. I have a plan and I’m not sharing it. So I think I have to draw my break from organizing to a close and get back to work. Stopping for more than an hour tends to suck the motivation right out of me. Sad thing is I may have to make a late night trip to Walmart and pick up some dinner on the way home… that’s really going to suck the motivation out of me. Yes, dinner at 2:00 AM.
You are raining on the sunshine and puppy dog parade again, that is a cardinal rule and will only get you labeled as negative and outspoken. Of course people don’t want to hear the truth most of the time because it makes them realize how stupid their actions are when they already know how stupid they are being subconsciously but they don’t like you pointing those things out and bringing them to light. You are looking at the king of being labeled as disenfranchised and negative by former employers for pointing out things that were obvious to everyone but spoken of by no one, speaking ones mind often get you nothing but ostracized but damn it if someone is being a dumb-ass I say call it like it is; that’s what I do… then again I have been labeled as outspoken and inappropriate already so I have nothing to lose at this point.
I may be able to give you a run for your money on the past employers. I think Jesse would have to tell the story thought, of how I’m a “dark cloud”.
Well Remember I’m not the one that gave you the Dark Cloud label! Hell you have a lot of good things going for you right now, time to focus on the positives, it is always easy to get caught up in negatives and point out other peoples faults or annoyances, but it it more difficult to remain positive. So now that I’ve gave you the happy go luck rainbow speech lets go get a beer somewhere this weekend!