Okay, I may have a problem. It’s 4:00 am. I tried sleeping. It worked for about an hour. Then I woke up and started thinking and decided to get up and now it’s 4:00 am. This is ridiculous. In case any one is wondering, it’s still raining. The more amusing thing, after playing with my budget and mortgage spread sheets to see where I’d be sitting in a few months I decided to post a blog. In the process I decided to remove the maintenance page and return to normal operation. To do this I logged in to my cpanel and see I have 9000 emails to my admin account. Every 15 minutes I get an email telling me about the cron job I just ran that’s looking for blog posts submitted via email. So I decided to look into that problem. Sometimes when your interest lies in computers it seems you’re troubleshooting more than using. Now it’s 4:00 am and I’m in my normal state of tired, maybe really tired, maybe so tired I’m too tired to sleep. It is kind of sad when the Unisom commercial comes on and it keeps your attention every time and you think, I wonder if that really works. Part of the reason I started thinking about budgets and mortgages is tonight I realized I feel like I’m actually living in a hotel. Like I got the suite in a fairly old hotel that was kept up pretty well. It’s a weird feeling to go into your bedroom and feel like this isn’t my home, but there is my bed in this giant room filled with boxes hoping to see a familiar face. The few channels on the TV I do get are only static and you can’t nap on the couch without getting a kink in your back (that’s cause it’s really a love seat). I guess after about 6 weeks things are starting to already wear on me.

So I have a little secret and I’m not telling you what it is. Since I haven’t had to go through enough life changing events in the last year, I decided to add one more to the list. I decided I wanted to hit the 3 biggest life altering changes in one year that can be done by a single person (as in not multiple people, I assume having a child is very life altering but that’s not happening). I guess project respect me was a giant failure where it should have succeeded. But as many people are telling me, it succeeded in ways but just not ones I expected. I guess it was like when a little kid gets smacked in the head by their sibling, they want to cry but then they realize they’re tooth fell out and they’re excited in a painful way. The only different is afterwards, you have to be moved out of the house all your siblings are. Like I haven’t lost enough in the last year… life I guess life is usually bitter sweet in my case.

I have the urge get the fishing poles out this week and start getting them ready. I don’t really have anyone to go fishing with anymore though, so if anyone is interested let me know. I may try to get out at dawn sometime this weekend if it is nice out, or maybe dusk. Cold beers aren’t usually good at dawn and it’s not like I’m out there cause I plan to catch something worth talking about. I guess it depends on how the week goes. My computer is about one step away from falling off the cliff. The last new part should be here this week. So I have a major project ahead of me this week and weekend. Not to mention I can’t decide between XP or Vista and 32-bit or 64-bit. Apparently I was unaware XP will not have DirectX 10 support and it seems silly to not put my 4 gigs of memory to use… so I guess that means Vista 64. It’s going to be a frustrating week.