Last weekend was actually a productive weekend. I got my bike ready to ride and my peppers all planted. The interesting thing is, this year my peppers are starting off really small. Usually I can put stakes in and give them a little extra support for the windy Nebraska days but this year they are too small to do that. With the winds picking up constantly (like this afternoon), I keep expecting to go home and see a bunch of the plants broken off. There also isn’t much sun on my deck for very long so I’m not sure how they’ll do this year. If they all die, it may be okay, because the dehydrator is packed away in some box and really, I have no clue where it is at. The wind is also causing issues with going out riding. I’m one of those people that enjoys riding but I don’t enjoy fighting the wind, which is why I ride at night or at wilderness. Wilderness I’m sure is a muddy mess but once it is dark I have other things I rather be doing. I remember once someone telling me they watch so much TV because they’re depressed… maybe I just need a better TV.

Just when you think your unexpected bills are done coming… apparently I’m paying for car insurance for a car no longer on my policy this month. I was all excited to actually pay off all my debt and have all my bills paid and be clear of unexpected fees and what not and of course I have to get slapped in the face with one more. Prime example of why it is usually better to just take care of things on your own. The amusing thing is how all of these things get handled. No one wants to take blame, but I didn’t do anything. I was told it is all taken care of, just call and give them the new account number to make your payment from and all of a sudden I’m paying twice as much as I’m supposed to be paying for insurance. Let me tell you, it is a great feeling. It is more interesting the number of times I wonder if life would be better if things never changed, knowing how they are now. Old life wasn’t horrible by any means before it started getting ugly. Of course, I’m the reason it is ugly. I’ve come to learn, I am ALWAYS the reason when something goes wrong, still today. Even when I’m the one the feels hurt, it is still my fault. I’d like to meet a person willing to take the blame once in awhile and just say, “yea, I see your point and I’m sorry.” Instead it seems I always get just the opposite and I’m told why I’m wrong. It sucks aways being wrong and at fault. It really makes you feel like you serve no purpose in this world. This insurance thing apparently is also my fault, even though I didn’t call to change the policy without telling anyone. Eh… what’s the point of even complaining about it. That is just going to cause some other dilemma that is also my fault. I’ll just wait and hope they correct it and I get my money back. In the mean time, the tactics behind the argument are always enjoyable as it gives me the heightened sense of victory even though I don’t have my money back.

Have you ever tried to delete your MySpace account? I was updating Facebook this weekend and realized MySpace and Facebook tend to be a giant waste of time for me. Most people don’t really do anything with it, at least not that I know of. Most people don’t even update their pages or do anything with them. I can tell Facebook has some cool features but really it seems like Facebook is a mess of junk… much like MySpace for the average user with no ability to write stylistic HTML (which is not their fault by any means, we can’t all be good at web design). I just can’t bring myself to getting rid of my accounts. It would be interesting to see how long before someone noticed though. Okay, so I may want to keep my MySpace account with just bands cause I do find that useful… but that is about it.

I think I figured out a way to post more often. I always put it off till the end of the day and then decide I rather go to bed. We’ll see how the new plan works.