Believe it or not, sometimes I feel like I’m running out of things to say or maybe I’m suffering from writer’s block. A lot of times I have my 3 paragraphs already picked out and I just need to write them but lately I’ve been sort of doing it on the fly. I’m not sure if that is good or bad. I do know one thing that has been on my mind lately. Every day I go home to check the mail and I’m hoping for a rebate check. I buy a lot of stuff online and I have always used rebates to my advantage. Really, I have never had bad luck with them before and maybe this is because I moved that I’m having bad luck. I’m waiting on about $150 in rebates and they just continue to not show. One of those rebates is actually a reissue that supposedly was mailed and 2 months later I still hadn’t received it. The last rebate I sent in I have already gotten back so I’m kind of skeptical if I will ever get the ones I am missing.

As I said not too long again, I’ve finally caught up financially from all the changes in the last year. I have to admit, many days I miss my old life but apparently I didn’t know how to live that life and I wasn’t willing to be the only one changing to make it good. It’s funny because money was always an issue back then and I was always the reason. Keep in mind, I spend like $200 a month on groceries and going out… I’m guessing we spent over that just eating take out on weekdays in a month, easily. It is kind of a great feeling to know now that I’m making as much as my counterpart was back then, if not more. I’ve started a TV fund and I can actually save money for things I want to buy. That doesn’t take in the fact that I want to buy a lot of stuff, but still, it is progress. It is kind of nice to have the feeling that your feet are back under you on stable ground. Now if only I wasn’t sitting at home so often.

So…tomorrow is the day. For a long time I’ve wanted to make a change in my life and I keep failing at it. I don’t usually fail and I think it has been bothering me for a long time. So tomorrow is my day. No more screwing around. I have to give 100% or I’m guessing I’ll set myself up for failure again. I’ve done it before so I can do it again. I’m also thinking that life change will make other life changes much easier. Working out more… losing some weight… feeling more active. So… don’t ask about it, don’t mention it… just wish me luck. And if I’m a little high strung for the next week or so, you’ll know why.