Love Isn’t
After almost a week of limping around and being asked 500 times what happened to my face, I realize I’m pretty angry with what happened now. Slipknot is a band that I had been wanting to see for a long time. I’ve been waiting six months for this show. They’re going over seas to tour for quite awhile after this tour so they likely won’t be back around for awhile. Plus, the band is so large and they have so many side projects, I don’t know if I’ll have a chance to see them again. I did get to see most the set but it was from much farther back than I wanted to be and it was slightly difficult to enjoy the show with my face bleeding. I was just irritated with the situation at that point and really I don’t remember much of Slipknot. (I do remember Sid rolling out in his wheelchair though, classic!) The funny thing, getting hit in the face isn’t even why I opted to leave the front. It was the fact that my knee was hurting and I thought I wouldn’t be able to stand for the whole thing. I didn’t need anymore crazy people hitting the person I was with or me. I really hope, out of some odd circumstance, the moron that hit me finds this post and realizes that someone accidentally falling in to my knee did more damage than him hitting me unexpectedly when I turned around, before fleeing in to the crowd like a giant coward. The entire trip, although short, was a blast for me. These are the types of things I enjoy doing and I was glad I had people to go with that had fun. That sort of covered up my irritation for not seeing Slipknot the way I would have liked to. So to my friends… thanks for the good time and maybe I’ll just have to realize maybe I wasn’t meant to see Slipknot up close and personal.
The rest of this post I wrote awhile ago and I’m just getting around to posting it, so good luck figuring out what prompted it.
You can’t find true love in a week, a month or even a year. Those that think you can and feel that you have, you should step back to a place I like to call reality because you’re not a movie star and your life isn’t a screen play. This specifically holds true if this is the 2nd or 3rd person you’ve felt this way toward in the last few years. Every relationship is great at the start so every relationship has the potential to feel like the one. If it wasn’t great, you wouldn’t have been interested in the first place to be in that relationship. Love isn’t something you happen to find. You find people. Maybe there would be fewer divorces if people didn’t rush into relationships and claim to be in love with any person they are attracted to. You’re all thinking, what is this moron talking about… he’s been divorced. This is true, but, I also know very few people my age that have been in a relationship for as long as I was. I also know what mistakes were made and I realize it isn’t just the other person’s fault… unlike the other person that thinks otherwise. Actually, during that time, I had many conversations with my family about life and relationships. Looking back, a lot of what was said is very true. I am by no means an expert on any topic but I’d like to think my opinions and beliefs are backed by common sense and logic which many people sometimes forget to use. No one is perfect and no relationship is going to be perfect. It will seem that way at first because you have a lot of getting to know each other, a lot to talk about and things are exciting and new. Don’t make yourself look like a fool by throwing the word love around like you’ve just found the holy grail of relationships that you’ve been waiting all your life for. (I must say, it is amusing to see this happen for awhile while everyone jokes about it, but when the joking gets old it becomes really annoying) Realize a relationship is only as strong as the trials it has gone through and work to actually realize what love can be, not what you think it is.
Relationships are difficult, including friendships. Four traits seem to plague all people to some level, and the more these traits exist the more difficult these people are to get along with. 1) Selfish 2) Greedy 3) Controlling 4) God Complex (there may be a better name for this but it is the when someone is always right and there way is the only way… these people come off as very argumentative and full of themselves) If you think you suffer from none of these traits, you’re ignorant. Most people suffer from all, they just vary how frequently these traits surface. Realizing how these reflect on your personality I think is key to being a good and likable person but some people, especially those that suffer from the god complex, will never realize how they are perceived. Maybe my new plan in life should be develop a lengthy test to rate you based on these four traits so you know how difficult it will be for you to find a partner and keep friends.

Damn dude why you gotta be raining on my parade? Maybe the way I feel in the beginning of a relationship is what I like about relationships; maybe it is the only reason to get into a relationship in the first place and that is why I act like an ass after a few months so that they will go away so I can have it all over again with someone else… is that wrong of me, does that make me less of a person. If you prick me do I not bleed, if you hit me do I not bruise?
On a serious note however I think everyone has negative characteristics it is finding someone who has the ones that bother you the least, that mesh with yours so that together the two of you become more complete together less fucked up then you are separately, then you stop listening to those outside trying to influence your decisions.